Faith.

My faith is a lot like this ring. It's been batted and bruised. Lost and found. Loved and forgotten. Ran over and twisted. Dropped and missed. But never once has it been broken. Never once has the love of God let me lose my faith in him forever. Not once have I ever lost this ring forever. I'll through a rough patch in my life and I'll start to lose faith. Question God. Why is this happening to me and my family. But like my ring, I will always find it again.

Last winter while walking my dog, Max, the snow wasn't very deep and was very fluffy. Well, I made a snowball with my right hand, and tossed it in the air. While I was trying to get the snow off of my bare hand, I was flinging my hand around, the ring slid off and into the snow. I searched everywhere for it. I couldn't find it.

I cried for losing the ring, and so it sat in the snow.

It's probably been pooped on.

It's been ran over by both bike and car.

It's been dropped.

It's been twisted.

It's been looked at.

It's been over-looked.

It's been lost.

It's been loved.

It's been missed.

It's been found.

It's been forgotten.

This ring is a symbol of my faith. My faith has been through the same things that this ring has. I didn't plan on wearing the ring, I found it by accident this morning and when I looked at it, and it was far from perfect I thought of how it represents my faith, and I slid it's battered-self onto my finger.

No matter how many time you may lose your faith or your way, Jesus is searching for you. He will find you.

Cae

Review: World Trade Center

9/11 marks a day on everyone's calendar, or at least on mine. It's usually a day of remembrance and a moment of silence for when the first tower was hit. By September 11th, 2001 my family was with my grandmother, who had cancer, more then anything. She would die one month late. World Trade Center is a fiction movie, based off of the events. I was a little concerned on how accurate it would actually be, but it was accurate, and scary to realize how well the film portrayed the country on 9/11. I will recommend a box of tissues, but this movie is a must see, this movie will help you remember what happened on that blue, blue sky of a day.

After the Twin Towers were hit, New York City officials decided to make a memorial to all who were lost, it is supposed to be opened in 2010, to check out the website go to Wtc.com.

God Bless

Cae

Blessings in my Life

"Cae is blessed with such an amazing boss! You know she's amazing when you walk into work and you see that the holds are taken care of, the books are checked in, the DVDs and CDs are put away in their case, all the items that needed to be shelved were all organized, and there were smileys on my to-do lists :) Susan is such a blessing to me and it's a blessing to have her in my life! ♥"

So I walked into work today ready for finding about 15 holds, to unload the inter-library loan boxes, to empty the drop box, to shelve a bunch of stuff, and to do whatever my boss left me to do since I passed her on my way to work. But when I walked in all I saw was a stack of books all organized and the computers all turned on. My boss did my work! Mrs. T is a huge blessing in my life, and although she's having a rough time finding a phlebotomy job, she works wonders at the library! I don't know where my library would be without her!! So I designated my Facebook Status, Deviant Art, and Blog to her. Because she is a blessing to me and in my life! She is proof that God puts people in your life for a reason!

Love you bunches Mrs. T!

Cae ♥

My Starbucks Fetish

You all know that I have my little Titanic Fetish from the last post. Well I also have a Starbucks fetish. I love Starbucks! I have read just about every book written about Starbucks, except for the Green Apron Handbook. The Green Apron Handbook is for the Barista and it fits right in the green apron pocket, and it has everything what the Barista is and how he/she should act, and the fundamentals of Starbucks. Now I've gone to the point of scheduling my college around it. If I went to University of Hartford in West Hartford, CT down the street there is a Starbucks, so I could work at my library on M, W, F, Work at Starbucks on S & Sat, and go to school on T & Thu. . .Good idea right? Well mom gave me the idea to write a letter to Starbucks, so that's what I'm doing. I'll will keep you guys updated!

Cae ♥

April 19-20, 2009 to April 19-20, 2010

Since I moved a year ago, I figured I would write a comparison of April 19-20. The two days that when I moved.

~.:April 19, 2009:.~

I woke up early, sat up on my mattress (my bed's in storage). Today mom is going to give the sermon today at church. I grabbed a pair of jeans, my dark blue & white stripped shirt, and my hot pink wedge heals out of the blue travel duffel bag. We left for church at 9:15. I wasn't singing in the choir today, because I knew I was going to cry, so I sat next to Jill instead. I waited in the narthex for Squid. I was always asked about the house, if I liked it, and if I wanted to move from people who knew my family. Squid never showed, so around 9:50 I walked over to the pew next to the organ. i sat on the red pew cushion, and waited for Jill. I kept my composure, until my mom went up and started her sermon.

"People use the phrase bittersweet to explain such a time of change in one’s life, but perhaps for us it is a little more bitter than sweet. But such a move is just another part of our faith journey." My mom said. Jill gave me a tissue then said "Cae, look at the congregation. . .They're crying. Cae, your dad is crying."

"Jill, my dad doesn't cry, he never cries," I said as I looked, sure enough some of the members of the congregation were crying. I looked across the church and looked up to the balcony. Sure enough my dad was crying, I lost all of my composure when I saw my dad crying, he never shows emotions. After church Erika took some photos of the family with Jill & Elven, the As, and the Ts.



We were just about to leave at 12 when mom said she needed to head to the market. She went over and saw Mrs. A (Squid Moms). Squid was with Mrs. A, so she and I hugged and cried in front of the church. "Cae, don't cry, because then I'll cry" Squid said as I cried and hugged. "Too late" I said as we hugged. "I'm going to miss you" I said as we hugged more. Finally when we were semi-composed we said goody. Once back home, I was sad, but as mom said "bittersweet"

~.:April 20, 2009:.~

I got dressed, pulled out jeans, hot pink wedge heals, My blue v cut short sleeve shirt, and my pink University of Hartford sweatshirt. Mr. Dattilo (our Realtor) came to the house around 8:00 as we were trying to pack the vehicles up and find our cat. At 11:00 the house was completely empty, well except for one basket and our cat. Just as we left the home owners pulled in to do a last walk through. We drove to Perk on main, to have a visit with Erika & her mom. Squid left a gift for me, since she had a horseback riding lesson. I opened my first and it was a pair of lounging pants with the towns name on the left pant leg. After mom and I went back to our house, to see that Bandit (our cat) came out, so mom got the cat and I changed into my new pants. We made it up to Massachusetts by 1:00 we had my grandfather follow us up, with stuff in his car. When we pulled into the driveway my new next door neighbor came over with her mom.
"Hi, I'm Meagan," Megan said "Hi, I'm Cae" I responded I just stood. Meagan and I talked until Meagan's mom said that they should let us unpack. Once I knew that there was a girl my age next door to us, I knew that we moved to the right place.

~.:April 19, 2010:.~

My hair was in two braid from last night. I took the braids out, and my hair was immediately wavy. I found a pair of jeans, my 3/4 sleeve shirt, and a pair of flip flops. I had work today until 5. It was also Patriot's Day (the day that messed up the whole house buying process up here), so it was a slow day at the library. I spent the day doing stuff I loved, reading, writing, cooking, and watching Survivor! I went for a long walk down my street, realizing what I gained up here in Massachusetts.

~.:April 20, 2010:.~

I woke up and dug around my closet for a pair of jeans, and a tee-shirt. Once those were found I went and took a shower. I got dressed and quickly braided my wet hair, and walked downstairs. Today is a boring day, not doing much of anything. I went on another long walk down my road, just thinking about moving and that since moving here, it was a really good thing for me, and that since moving I've been able to do much more things than, when I lived in Connecticut. I spent the rest of the day reading and playing outside with my next door neighbor. Compared to last year, this year was a lot more easier, and less stressful.


Since moving, I have learned a lot of things about life, and my relationship with God. Most of it because I moved, and it was hard on the teenager I am. I also have been able to excel in thing, and be able to do stuff that I wouldn't be allowed to do in Durham. I've gotten a job, written a book, made new friends, and gained a whole second hometown.

When I first moved to Massachusetts, I just about found something wrong with everything, and when I couldn't find something wrong with it I could just say "It's not like Connecticut" and I would be right. I have now realized that Massachusetts isn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, I've been able to grow in many ways, and I love it here!

Cae ♥

God Has a Plan

My mom and I got home today from my volunteer work at the local library and as my mom turned her laptop on and checked her email: there was a house that my dad loved. It was a log cabin, but my parents can’t buy any of the houses until ours sells, but my mom looks at the log cabin that was perfect and now it is even more. It dropped 50k!! My mom was sad. She really likes this house and we can’t afford to own two houses and two mortgages and all of that type of stuff, so I told her that if God really wanted us to own that house then he would have a plan in someone else’s life to come and buy ours.

See I go by God has a plan written out for you. He makes these issues….(i.e. houses)…….in our life and we need to choose the path that we want to take. See this time we can’t buy the house. So I guess we are stuck in out raised ranch for a couple more months. But what if God had someone come down our road and offer and we take it, would we then buy the log cabin??? Who knows, but God has the plan written out and in your past, present, and future events. You will get to them always. You might just take a couple detours, or you might not take the straightest road, but you will get there. God can only straighten a road to a point. Does not God promise that He will help you make most things easier when you believe in him and you trust him that you will follow his paths and guide that he made for you.

With the house selling and having the “perfect” house lowering 50k , if God really wants us to buy that house, he would show us and so far he hasn’t. Maybe we weren’t meant to own that house.


By, C