What to blog about?

So I'm at a block. A writer's block. There is absolutely nothing amazing in my life to blog about. Don't get me wrong. I'm busy beyond belief infact I barely have time to breath! But there isn't anything new and exciting in my life, just well, here I sang a solo last Sunday at church. It was Children's Sunday and my baby brother (bro #1) got confirmed.

The Sunday school teachers (I included) created the service. We planned it, and made the bulletins, and assigned parts, we did everything. By the time Sunday came we didn't have one full practice, and Miss Cae here didn't practice her solo more than once, oops ;) Well we did a run through at 9, and it went well. When we got to my solo we tried to have me sing with Pearl, one of the students. Pearl was playing the piano and I would be sining. Let me just say it is really really hard to match your speed to the piano. As a singer I'm used to the piano matching my speed, so when I tried to match Pearl's speed not only did I completely mess up the timing, but I messed up the lyrics. I looked at Mom and simply said "I can't do it. Please, let me do it a Capella."

Mom understood, as a singer herself, and let me sing it a Capella. So my second try, a Capella, was absolutely amazing. It even gave me goosebumps. One of the children told their mother that I should be on American Idol. I love the kids I get to teach :)

When the service finally started, and it went all good. No problems at all. We've noticed that whenever we feel stressed that something the Sunday school is doing something and we haven't practiced, it always comes out great. I guess we should keep in mind we're in church, and are a Sunday school. But yet, it always amazes us.

Anyway, when it got to my solo, Pearl played the first verse and then I was going to re-sing the first verse a Capella. Well the congregation missed the memo in the bulletin and decided to join me in the first verse. It was a great way to ease my nerves, and by the important part for me they all got the hint and shut up. By the end of my solo I felt great and was really happy that I did fairly well.

So, you're probably gonna want to hear this solo now that I've completely made it my whole blog post. Well I'm one step ahead of you and already uploaded it onto my Youtube account and I might as well add it onto my blog for ya'll to hear.

God bless,
Cae

Did you ever wonder?

Did you ever wonder why God doesn't stop us from screwing up some of the best things in our lives?

Clearly he knows the outcome. He'll know that when you send that one message to a friend (girlfriend) and it ruins your relationship. He knows that you'll spend days crying. He knows that you'll try to fix everything. But He'll know that nothing will work out. He knows that you and this friend will just get in more arguments over the stupidest of things.

So why doesn't God stop you from sending that one message? Why does He let you go through all of the pain that it causes you? Why does He let you lose hours of sleep because she's on your mind? Why?

Don't you ever wonder? Because, right now I am. It's not like me to question God or any of his works. But I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of not feeling good enough for this one person. I'm tired of trying to get her to understand how amazing she is. I'm just tried of everything. If I could do anything I would erase the one stupid little message, Hurt Cae decided to send, because it was getting too good to be true and she didn't want to get hurt again. Well I'm at the point to screw Hurt Cae and get hurt over and over and over again, until I learn that it's okay, it's normal for your heart to be broken. It will be okay, because Hurt Cae is horrible. She ruins the best of things.

So don't you ever wonder why God doesn't intervene to make you feel better? It makes you question how much love God really does have.

Help Support CNEER, Please!!

Hi guys!!

I volunteer at CNEER, Centeral New England Equine Rescue, and they're in the running for a 25k grant with the Pepsi Refresh. If you could vote every single day for them that would be great, just go here

http://www.refresheverything.com/cneer

Or you could always text your vote to 73774 with a message of 105988, you will get a response back from Pepsi almost instantly. Can txt in a vote once a day, All standard txt messaging rates apply. Please help CNEER!!

If you want to see some of the horses that they have rescued go to http://www.cneer.com/welcome.html

The horses thank you :)

My Mommy

My mom, or to you guys, Dawn. Well this past weekend has been a little stressful for Mom and I just wanted to dedicate this post to her, and have her understand how much I love her and how absolutely amazing she is.

1. She's always there whenever I need her.

2. She gives the amazing-est (yes that's a word) hugs ever!

3. Although she can be slightly embarrassing sometimes, I secretly love her for it.

4. She's a mother and my best friend.

5. She will stay up all night with me if I asked her to.

6. She's always there after a scary nightmare.

7. She's cleaned up countless vomit and still loves me :)

8. She is the coolest mother that I know, sorry S & J, but Mom totally beats you out, but you're close!!

9. I can blind side her, and she'll support my decision as long as it's a healthy life style.

10. She tries to do everything in the world, and gets tired doing it.

11. She puts her children first, even though we want to put her first once in a while.

12. She plans the best surprise birthdays

13. She tries not to burden us with money issues, even though you know when we have some.

14. She protects us as best as she can.

15. She is the best role-model ever.

I know this is just a small list of how amazing my mother is, but I hope she of all people will see how amazing she is, and how much I love her and look up to her. No matter what.

I love you Mommy ♥

"I'm calling from Rockfall and I have a stupid question"

"I'm calling from Rockfall, Connecticut and I have a stupid question"

That's how my phone conversation started this afternoon at work. It was a normal day, actually it was really slow, when the phone rang. So I answered the phone normally, what I did not expect was a person from Connecticut trying to find a birth certificate and a marriage license, and a new acquaintanceship.

I had to tell the patron that the Warren library is a much better library that would have the information that she was looking for, within the first five minutes, but that didn't stop her. She continued to talk to me and ask me questions about the town for another thirty minutes. This patron was so sweet, and guessed how young I was. She never got the age, but she guessed that I was a teen. She talked a little about her life, and one thing she said to me stuck out.

"You're probably going to ask why I don't write a book about my life, well if I did all of these lovely people I'm talking about would sue my ass, so I'm taking it to my grave"

I laughed several times in the conversation, a genuine laugh. By the end of the phone call I told her that she made my day, her response "Well then you must have had a very boring day hun" I laughed and told her that my day was pretty exciting, but she made it so much better.

I never knew that a phone conversation that starts with "I have a stupid question" and "There's no such thing as a stupid question" could end up talking about seven kids, five cats, and a husband. This one phone call, 24 minutes, brightened my day so much.

Happy Mother's Day

Happy mother's day Mom!

You are amazing.

You're always there for me.

Love me no matter what.

You keep your cool when I give you the worst news.

You try your very hardest with understanding me.

I always surprised you, but you never let it seem to phase you.

You wear your heart on your sleeve.

You're like my best friend.

Your world revolves around me.

You try to accommodate me as best as you can.

You give me the best hugs.

You know when I'm down, and know how to cheer me up.

You are my world Mom.

You mean everything to me.

I love you so much.

Happy Mother's Day.

Dancing in the Rain and Horseback Riding Boots

I love dancing in the rain. I guess because the water is nice, and the smell is even better. Especially when it's one of the first couple rainstorms in New England, the smell of it about to rain is so overwhelming, but it's amazing :)

It's supposed to storm here in MA today, and I can't wait. I love going out in a tank top or a tee shirt, jeans or sweatpants and just running and dancing and singing and acting like a complete dork. I will also dance in my bare feet, just because the driveway feels so nice when it's wet. I love when it rains, it's so comforting.

Also, I've been in look for tall horseback riding boots ever since my last pair broke on me :( Well I was told this past Wednesday when I was at the barn that I should be able to re-start riding next week, since the past winter has been really bad and they only have an outdoor ring. So I was so happy to hear that I was going to be riding next week, but then I realized I didn't have any boots!! So yesterday after work Mum needed to go grocery shopping and I knew that there was a tack shop over in Spencer by the Big Y, so I, explained my plan to Mum. Adding in the fact that she wouldn't have to drive and that I could drive to the Crop & Carrot and to Big Y and not kill anyone while I was driving! Mum finally said yes, so yesterday I drove to the Crop & Carrot, and let me tell you I am in love with them. I not only found a pair of my boots, they're synthetic because they were $100 cheaper, but I found boots to muck the stalls in and horseback riding gloves.

Aren't they beautiful? I love them. They are the perfect hight and the perfect price, and now I can ride this upcoming Wednesday :) I'm currently breaking them in :)