Did you ever wonder?

Did you ever wonder why God doesn't stop us from screwing up some of the best things in our lives?

Clearly he knows the outcome. He'll know that when you send that one message to a friend (girlfriend) and it ruins your relationship. He knows that you'll spend days crying. He knows that you'll try to fix everything. But He'll know that nothing will work out. He knows that you and this friend will just get in more arguments over the stupidest of things.

So why doesn't God stop you from sending that one message? Why does He let you go through all of the pain that it causes you? Why does He let you lose hours of sleep because she's on your mind? Why?

Don't you ever wonder? Because, right now I am. It's not like me to question God or any of his works. But I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of not feeling good enough for this one person. I'm tired of trying to get her to understand how amazing she is. I'm just tried of everything. If I could do anything I would erase the one stupid little message, Hurt Cae decided to send, because it was getting too good to be true and she didn't want to get hurt again. Well I'm at the point to screw Hurt Cae and get hurt over and over and over again, until I learn that it's okay, it's normal for your heart to be broken. It will be okay, because Hurt Cae is horrible. She ruins the best of things.

So don't you ever wonder why God doesn't intervene to make you feel better? It makes you question how much love God really does have.