I Have a Calling, I think.

I think God's calling me. I've been having restless nights, or having the same dream. I'm constantly thinking of going to ANTS, ever since I googled how many UCC churches there were down in Georgia for A. The closest one to her was over 70 miles away!

I've always grown up with a UCC church in every town. If there wasn't a UCC church in my town, there would be one in all of the five closest towns, if not two! So when I learned that the closest one was over 70 miles away from A, I couldn't believe it. I had this strange feeling saying that I should do something to change that. But I disregarded it. Seriously what can a 16 year old, who plans to be a librarian, do?

Then the dreams started. Me preaching, A by to my side, going to the UCC conferences and having the church be an ONA church. It seemed each night the dreams got more and more vivid. It started out as me just talking, but then other people started talking. Other people, with southern accents. Then it was me going to ANTS, and me living where there wasn't snow at all. It feels as if God is calling me. Well, it feels like God's going "CAELYN! CAELYN! OPEN YOUR DAMN EYES YOU BLIND BAT!! Do I need to send Jesus down there just to make you see your FUCKING CALLING?!" right now, but none the less I have this calling.

I feel as if I need to help the UCC spread into the south. Help them spread their ONA churches, and I want my church to be one of the first down there in the south. I'm continuing to pray, confused as heck on what to do with my life and where I should go to school, and what I want to major in. But the only thing that I can feel, that is set in stone, is going to theological school to become a minister and move down to Georgia.