Daddy

A couple months ago, Mom was reading one of her homeschooling sites and a comment came up from a mother stating that her husband works a lot and is very rarely home, and that her daughter (around my age) misses him and she was looking for help. I looked at Mom and said "Tell her to suck it up! I've lived with it for most of my life, she can live with it also! Or tell her to make a pillow from old jeans from her father." Mom laughed and she understood my reaction. My father is very work oriented, I have been accustomed to not seeing him in the audience at a play, or sitting in the pew for my confirmation. I used to attempt to figure why he would be in FL instead of CT for my birthday, or why he would be in SD at a meeting instead of watching me get confirmed, or why he would be somewhere in New England while I had a lead role or a solo in a performance of mine. I've finally come to peace with this, I no longer care. I know that it would be nice to have my father there watching me and clapping for me, but there are times that he needs to be somewhere, and a lot of these times are important and if he didn't go it could cost him his job.

My father most recently missed my confirmation, he had to be in SD for work. I can't really be mad at him, but it does make me wish that he was sitting in the pew next to Mom, but I guess you can't have everything. I have to say Dad has missed some important things in both my life and Bro #1's life. Dad felt bad for not being able to see me get confirmed, but I told him he's finally even. He missed Bro #1's baptism, so he can miss my confirmation.

As I get older I learn that although I would want me father with me, but if he isn't there in person, he's always there in spirit.

Cae ♥